Paralytic States (of Dependency)

http://repertoire.bmi.com/title.asp?blnWriter=True&blnPublisher=True&blnArtist=True&keyID=14387230&ShowNbr=0&ShowSeqNbr=0&querytype=WorkID

New song ya'll. Consider this a placeholder thread.

odd that its under thomas gabel?

It's still her legal name. Why would it be odd at all? On legal documents, you use your legal name.. or else it's not a legal binding document.

How did you possibly find this.

Kyle wrote:

How did you possibly find this.

I lol'd

How are cool points given? Haha

It seems that this, the piano/bass/drum version of David Johansen's Soul and Dead Generations are the only AM! songs we cannot account for. There are obviously countless others that have never got past the demo stage and/or have never been released.

For those who care, other songs registered and therefore basically confirmed for Transgender Dysphoria Blues are Black Me Out, Dead Friend, Drinking with the Jocks, Osama, Paralytic, TgDB & TTSR. Hopefully other songs will follow suit very soon.

Kyle wrote:

How did you possibly find this.

I searched for Dead Generations when Davy found out the name from Andrew and just happened to find this repertoire.

I hope this song ends up being the one we've called "What She Wanted to Be".

Another fun fact for you all: One of AM!'s former drummers is called William. His middle name is Warren.

That registry is insane. I think we are becoming too smart for our own good haha. Any song meaning ideas based on the title?

emmsmem wrote:

That registry is insane.

That registry is how people first found out about Tom from blink-182 starting Angels & Airwaves.

Tim wrote:

emmsmem wrote:

That registry is insane.

That registry is how people first found out about Tom from blink-182 starting Angels & Airwaves.

It's nice that it's getting used for a good reason then.

Anybody got any idea on the lyrics?

She couldn't even fucking do ...
... [shaven face?] laughter, ... sirens
Way down through...
Blood spilt out on [the Brooklyn?]
The bathtub's overflowing.

Paralytic states of dependency,
Awake in nights just to live in dreams
Agitated states of amazement,
Never quite the woman that she wanted to be.

Spread her face down on the same ...
She spent the last years of her life running from the whore she used to be
Cut her face wide open, shaved the bone ... [Don't think I'm dying yet, ...]
...fucked-up kind of feminine.

Nighttimes at the hotel, there was fighting in the halls,
Thin chain lock to keep the world out, she held her breath ...
Standing naked in front of that hotel bathroom mirror,
[...porous] reflection, she still saw her mother's son.

By the time the ball dropped, it was already over.
No resolutions for the new year beginning tomorrow.

Aaron wrote:

Anybody got any idea on the lyrics?

She couldn't even fucking do ...
... [shaven face?] laughter, ... sirens
Way down through...
Blood spilt out on [the Brooklyn?]
The bathtub's overflowing.

Paralytic states of dependency,
Awake in nights just to live in dreams
Agitated states of amazement,
Never quite the woman that she wanted to be.

Spread her face down on the same ...
She spent the last years of her life running from the whore she used to be
Cut her face wide open, shaved the bone ... [Don't think I'm dying yet, ...]
...fucked-up kind of feminine.

Nighttimes at the hotel, there was fighting in the halls,
Thin chain lock to keep the world out, she held her breath ...
Standing naked in front of that hotel bathroom mirror,
[...porous] reflection, she still saw her mother's son.

By the time the ball dropped, it was already over.
No resolutions for the new year beginning tomorrow.

It's "Our waking life's just a living dream", and "see the sirens' red and blue lights flashing through those cheap hotel drapes", "blood spilled out on the porcelain" and "spread out face down on those same cheap hotel sheets". That's all I've got. This song is really heartbreaking.

She couldn’t even fucking prove a single..
…baby’s crying, see her laughter, see the sirens
Red and blue lights flashing through those cheap hotel drapes
Blood spilled out on the porcelain
The bathtub’s overflowing

Paralytic states of dependency
Our waking life’s just a living dream
Agitated states of amazement
Never quite the woman that she wanted to be

Spread out face down on those same cheap hotel sheets
She spent the last years of her life running from the whore she used to be
Cut her face wide open, shaved the bone down
….exaggerated, fucked up kind of feminine

Paralytic states of dependency
Our waking life’s just a living dream
Agitated states of amazement
Never quite the woman that she wanted to be

Night time at the hotel, kids were fighting in the hall
Thin chain lock to keep the world out, she held her breath till it was gone
Standing naked in front of that hotel bathroom mirror,
In her … fashion, she still saw her mother’s son

Paralytic states of dependency
Our waking life’s just a living dream
Agitated states of amazement
Never quite the woman that she wanted to be

By the time the ball dropped, it was already over
No resolutions for the new year beginning tomorrow

Awesoooome. Also, this song is now known simply as "Paralytic States".

She could hear them fucking through those thin hotel walls
She heard babies crying, she heard laughter, she heard sirens
Red and blue lights flashing through those thin hotel drapes
Blood spilled out on the porcelain
The bathtub's over-flowing

Paralytic states of dependency
All waking life's just a living dream
Agitated states of amazement
Never quite the woman that she wanted to be

Spread out faced down on those stained cheap hotel sheets
She spent the last years of her life running from the boy she used to be
Cut her face wide open
Shaved the bone down thin
Plumped her lips up exaggerated
A fucked up kind of feminine

Paralytic states of dependency
All waking life's just a living dream
Agitated states of amazement
Never quite the woman that she wanted to be

Nighttime at the hotel there was fighting in the halls
Thin chain lock to keep the world out, she held her breath till it was gone
Standing naked in front of her hotel bathroom mirror
In her dysphoria's reflection she still saw her mother's son.
Paralytic states of dependency.
All waking life's just a living dream.
Agitated states of amazement.
Never quite the woman that she wanted to be.

By the time the ball dropped it was already over.
By the time the ball dropped it was already over.
No resolutions for the new year beginning tomorrow

Fucking amazing lyrics.

Awesome song/lyrics

"That song is about a transgender person dealing with addiction and dysphoria and killing themselves in a hotel bathtub. Obviously I'm not dead in a hotel bathtub, but all the experiences of existing that way, being in that hotel room, are very much real to me, that's a life that I've lived."

http://thequietus.com/articles/14834-against-me-laura-jane-grace-interview